I SHALL NOT WAIT

What if I tell you
I shall not wait
And burst this pain of mine
Far and wide
in all the history books
Could you feel it?

What if this pain do not heal
And that alone is enough
To wade this heart free

I cannot take any more
My darkest nights has loomed
My calls were all in despair
All seemed meaningless to you

As laughter was a while ago
We made a pact never to let go
But does it matter anymore
If I shall not wait
Because you ended it before
And our love just died yesterday!

MY ABSENCE WOULD MAKE YOU WISE

If my absence would make you wise
No eyes would ever look your way
If all our stories were told in history books
All hearts would wander each to each

Our spirits were free from mortal mesh
And the love was set in hearts of flesh
Your aching heart yearns to meet
And somehow the cycle was not complete

But how do stones grow?
For it lives uncovered and no one knows
And all the secret powers they have
Were all knowledge that you made
Thrilling and faint until
these stones turned and turned
sweetly nurtured by you

But you seek not
Why these stones are like you
They just lie there
cold and lifeless
For if you must love
Follow not the stone but the heart
For I must love because I live
And life in me is what you give

I DO NOT LOVE TO PLEASE

I do not love to please
Nor do I care if I do not
For another broken heart
Has build another Hell
In this old heart of mine

So sing your lullaby
And count all your pebbles
and stones
You can wiped out all your fear
For I shall not wonder near
Your heart of stone
For years we shall not meet

For I love for the sake of me
To bind another will be a delight
If you lose me
It is a loss of ease for you
Build your hell within you
I love not to please!

THIS LONGING WILL STOP

This hopeless longing
has stopped, and then
It started again
My night will be long
when my longing begins

I said, a thousand times,
This could not be
A messenger from another world
Could not be as kind
Or smile so sweetly
To care to others as to me

Your words did not sooth
As I come to face the truth
This is just a dream
Your virtual kiss did not linger
My love did you suffer?

Do not come in my dreams
By tomorrow I shall be well again
And the longing will stop
When I realise
You are just an illusion

EACH WISH OF MY HEART

Each wish of my heart
For you to stay
near me forever
today or tomorrow
will be the same

It is not while you are here
as a traveller, a tourist or just my companion
I will still rejoice
but then your 6 months
will be up and then the final goodbye?

The faith of your soul cant be known
So is your love
I am still not certain
But you said
your faith and soul
are all true confession
and that I should not fear

Till then
to which time
your presence will still be more dear
to me, and me and me!

ONLY IF YOU STAY

I saw him at closer view
A phantom of delight
His spirit light and free
And his steps were all towards me
How long were you here?
Waiting for me?
And so he said....

But where were you all these years?
I waited all my life...
And that I said between tears and joy

I am none but a poor woman
All images of youth are drawn and long gone
What I have today is not too bright or good

I have nothing to share with you
My noble man
Only transient sorrows, simple wiles

But if you would stay
I'll share with you some love, kisses, tears, and smiles
Only IF you stay

A PERFECT NOBLE MAN, A TRAVELLER


A perfect man, almost
noble and charming
to comfort and command
All that a man should be
And yet the spirit is sometimes
still and cold
With something of a heartless soul

And now that I see closely
The voice, the pulse and
breathing thoughtful breath
I pray this will last
if only for a while

He is afterall
A Traveller between there and here
His reason is firm
Our bond could not be
Even with endurance, foresight, strength
and much love

THE RUSH OF JOY IS BACK

My heart skipped today
and my day is full of joy
Everything else around me
seems to change

The soft hue of green pale grass
was vividly beautiful in my eyes
and when the win blew
I feel a sudden rush of joy

Even in a cold evening
the dull flowers
seemed to transform to petals of
red and blue

When night falls
My heart is rejoiced with old tunes
the love lyrics just get better
with such sweetness and joy
I know the passion is back
And the love that once left me
is home

LIVE WITH ME

We spoke
in the silence of the night
that fateful day
I am I, and you are you,
Me, loving but eluding
And you, cold but charming

So, should you pursue me?
Or loathe me?
My life is a fault
But you said this is our fate
and together this is our destiny!

Scarcely, I fear I will not hold you dear
Keeping my nerves at strain
But what if I fail? Again?
Will you be there to dry my eyes
or laugh at my fall?

So, take a look from afar
farthest from my sight
The old hope is at the old mark
And the new one, a different place
Just remove all
Live with me
And we should be fine