HE COMES NOT TO ME

He comes not
When I send him flowers
With words and sonnets
From a distant heart
Too bright is his day
That he could not see me

He comes not
To my soul till it breaks a silent tear
For he has TO work and work
With no rest and play
That he do not seek me

When night falls
The great voices gone
All rocks and stones, pebbles and limestones
And oil rolled in from the mountains and sea
He comes not to me

By night
I plastered a dream around me
With all the stars, the moon and candlelight
And a history book by my side
He STILL does not come to me

THE ROCK WAS GONE

I found a piece of rock
So mean and precious
I place it in my palm
And went to sleep
The night was prosy
Everything else was still
And I thought
It would be alright

Then I woke up
The prevailing wind has stopped
The rain started to drizzle
My honest palm turned sweaty
And the rock was gone

I look around me
I have none
Only a rock in remembrance of you
And that's all I own

YET IM STILL HERE

When you called at last
Your loving voice seek for mine
And I hold that memory close - at last!
Not often this heart is robbed
A heart so chilled
As hard as a rock
Yet Im here still


In truth
There are shadows on my brows
And girlish grace on my face
Traces you left for me
Which holds a lover's vow
Despite my sad and faded face
And a darkened heart that bleeds
Im still here


I count no more wasted tears
They left no signs of their fall
I mourn no more my lonesome days
With or Without you
Leave me here for now
With this blessed memory of you and me


I fear not my fate or my destiny anymore
Should this be a burden for you
A strong love that came so late
Will always have its place
For my soul will keep it safe always
Right here inside me!

MY TOKEN OF VALENTINE

Please accept this
The little token of love
Which you call Valentine
You will find the lines you seek
That I've never often spoken
Though with my dying lips

Though awkward very
The heart desire's expressed
Dear sweetheart of mine
For I can never be your Valentine

With repeated emotions
I'll mock anyone
Who loves me not or love me less
For I am no ones Valentine

And when I stutter to say yes
Think not my love is dead or gone
What awaits for you to come
Is not a Valentine
But true love that is so divine

So take this dear love
My little token of Valentine
Though in words nothing more
The sentiment I've faintly spoken
But believe me....its real

THIS HEART WILL NOT FORGET HIM

Will you not forget him?
That night was just you and I
Today is you and you
You must forget the warmth he gave
And I will try to forget the light

When this heart is done
Please tell me
Then I will put all thoughts to dim
And wash the marks he left
Mute all the sound
Erased all memories
For all that in haste should be forgotten
No point chasing a rainbow
Its like taming a wild goose
Or a dull man who does not feel

But heart, while you try to forget him
I may remember him
A little
Because I still love him!

TOO DEEP TO TELL

When I see your name today
Blinking so brightly
I could not remember
All the aches that you left me
And I tried to smile again

You may not know
I whispered and caress
Your name before me
In all my prayers

If only you know
How true this old heart is
You will shudder when you dont hear
Dont see and dont feel me

But I know not you
After you left this heart
Wounded and crushed
The hurt is still there
The scar is still here
I shall not forget this cut
Its too deeply to tell

THIS WOULD BE MY SORROW

This would be my sorrow
As we parted each time
In the silence of the night
Waiting for that call was a near miss - AGAIN!
The warmth of your love is gone
And my heart bleeds again

This would be my sorrow
Each time you severe this bond
I grew pale and cold
Thinking of you
And asking the 'ifs' and 'whys'

This would be my sorrow
As the wind gets colder
And the rain harsher today than ever
For your absence
Makes this unbearable

This would be my sorrow
As I waited patiently and truly
Minute by minute
Hour by hour
Forever restless
And nothing seems to change

This would be my sorrow
For the warning was clear
The beginning of another heartache
of years to come
Of what I feel now

So do you break your vow as easy
and so light as your promise?
For this would be my sorrow