I AM ZIEMAN

THE 'LOVE' HE WROTE

Dear S,

I didn't mean to expose our 'little secret' for all to know but lovely notes like the ones you have written should be kept in a place where it belongs ---- archive. And this is my archive. Sorry, didn't mean to hurt you again but I just had to share it with my friends...I hope you understand.

It's another way to say I appreciate, I care and I admire your guts for having the courage to tell me what you have been wanting to tell me all these years. No hard feelings please.

Love is such an overused and cliche word. It caused confusion and has been used so often that I don't even know what it means any more. Perhaps I am not meant to be loved...

S wrote:

it came like a bomb
it must be immense hurt
that drove you to break the years of painful silence
and to open, for all to know a trove of love sick prose meant just for you.

i'm actually at a loss for wordsas this was unexpected
it melted my heartweakened my kneesrocked my headand vapoured my eyes
it was a mixed feeling ofwonder, confusiontenderness, dumbness and ...
dont know what else
for some while, i just couldnt think or work
and my first response was :"God, have i devastated her?"

dear zieman
that door that u think i closed
was just in an illusion in slumberland
i only said there was no more dreams to tell
i didnt mean to shut you out of my life.
the corner in my heart
where i have etched your name is always there for you
to seek shelter and warmth

a gentle knock will do
for this door to open and to invite you in
this door was never locked
i'm truly..trully...truly sorry
for my lack of patience and understanding of your feelings

if any good comes from all this
it is by the grace of Allah
and may He forgive us for our weakness
everything else is due to our human failings
and may Allah help and guide us so that we will be strong.

thank you for your kind thoughts of me
thank you for sharing your feelings
thank you ...thank you...thank you
for being you.

wassalamsmiles and cheers.