SAY IT'S OVER

Say it's over
But do not say it to me
That you do not love me
For I shall echo the words after you
again and again
till you feel sorry
that you had left me

I shall not cry
Nor shall I say more
Amid the void and darkness trail
that you left behind
I doubt you will feel the pain

Say that you don't love me
Softly and silently
But don't let me hear it
For I know
To love me in silence
this far
with all your soul
Was just a dream
and a mistake!

HOW CAN I REJOICE?

I thought of you
And my soul goes weak again
My heart starts to shut so closely
The visionary pain
suddenly becomes real once more
So how can I rejoice
a pleasure that is so painful?

You lured me
nearer to you
The foolish me obeyed
A quaint wild music seeps through me
And I began to float once more
But how can I rejoice
a wish that is so weak?

Your long letters gone
They don't come easy anymore
And I started missing it even more
So how can I rejoice
when you don't send me bouquets
in love notes?

I thought of you again tonight
My best thoughts of you are long
and sweet
And the dreams get stranger
But how can I rejoice
when I feel sad enough to break?

SPEAK TO ME

My love
Speak slow to me
sweet and gentle
From where you are
I can still hear you

Lest I should fear
that I will miss you more
The miles are too wide for me
And the days too long
So speak to me more
and show me how tender
your love can be

My dear one
Just let my tears drop go
once and for all
though they are wet
the pain has gone because of you
So speak now
straight to my heart
tell me your love is true till the end

Dear love
speak to me now
Im tired of waiting

Fold me, hold me
close and warm
near your beating heart
For I am all alone
Unloved, unkissed
without you

MY DAYS ARE DULL

My days are dull
My hours half filled
When nights get long
I leave a life behind

Can I slip into slumber tonight?
and not stray again
when thoughts of you
fills up my mind
through and through
time and time

I shook my head
and turned off all emotions
For this cannot be
a life without you
is half MADNESS!

A GENTLE THANK YOU

Time passed me by
Since the first hello
and whisper of love
Yet I could not reply
Only a gentle "Thank you"

You breathed life and passion
and led me on to a familiar path
of yesteryears

I told you of history
of past love that rained so hard
in this small heart of mine
But you said it's ok love

You promised to heal this wound
chase the blues
and wipe the tears
And I asked you how?

Though confused
I start to plant my rose and love flowers again
in the secret garden of my playground
though lonely here without you
I still wait for the shine
and the bloom

Then you spoke of a bright gold ring
Of a new life of you and me
The spinning daze drove me further away
Yet I prayed THE day will be!

IF THIS IS THE WAY

You showed me the way
and gave me the light
wrote me a script
about hopes and dreams
something I never dared
to dream for a second

You held my hands
and took me to this path
I felt lonely no more
My nights were longer
and my days were torturous

I do not know how
I do not know when
You took my breath away
and grabbed every bit of me

Was it something you said
or something you wrote

You assured me of love
and promised me you will be true
Though I do not doubt you
but I am still searching for the truth

Confused that I am
First I wanted to stay
Then I wanted to go
And there I was
Caught in between love and confusion

Yet I do not want you to leave
Though I beg you to go...

The memories you etched were so real
But the guilt I bear
I could not condone
I have nothing more to share
nothing more to give
Just an old heart and a wounded soul
all tattered and gone
So please forgive me
If I show you not my love

MY SILENT PRAYERS

Oh God
This heart is like a treasure
It will go down to the sea with the ships
If you don't save me

Im sick of hired men
Nor do I want desirous ones
Give me one
Who fills my heart with so much love

Send me one
Who could content me like a fountain
and I will drink from my own well

Get me one
Who can charm me with his words
And send shivers down my spine

Make him love me
Like no other lover

And please
Do not send me lust without love
romance without passion
for its like sending me a Kiss of Death

So let me rejoice (if you allow me)
now that I've found him
My match, my pride, my joy
My secret lover
whose love is in my every veins

For if you should take him away now
I'd feel like a tramp
My life would crumble
hurled through still heavens
And I would be lost

So leave us God
and bless us please
till death do us part
And all the other men
can go to Hell!