IF THIS IS THE WAY

You showed me the way
and gave me the light
wrote me a script
about hopes and dreams
something I never dared
to dream for a second

You held my hands
and took me to this path
I felt lonely no more
My nights were longer
and my days were torturous

I do not know how
I do not know when
You took my breath away
and grabbed every bit of me

Was it something you said
or something you wrote

You assured me of love
and promised me you will be true
Though I do not doubt you
but I am still searching for the truth

Confused that I am
First I wanted to stay
Then I wanted to go
And there I was
Caught in between love and confusion

Yet I do not want you to leave
Though I beg you to go...

The memories you etched were so real
But the guilt I bear
I could not condone
I have nothing more to share
nothing more to give
Just an old heart and a wounded soul
all tattered and gone
So please forgive me
If I show you not my love

MY SILENT PRAYERS

Oh God
This heart is like a treasure
It will go down to the sea with the ships
If you don't save me

Im sick of hired men
Nor do I want desirous ones
Give me one
Who fills my heart with so much love

Send me one
Who could content me like a fountain
and I will drink from my own well

Get me one
Who can charm me with his words
And send shivers down my spine

Make him love me
Like no other lover

And please
Do not send me lust without love
romance without passion
for its like sending me a Kiss of Death

So let me rejoice (if you allow me)
now that I've found him
My match, my pride, my joy
My secret lover
whose love is in my every veins

For if you should take him away now
I'd feel like a tramp
My life would crumble
hurled through still heavens
And I would be lost

So leave us God
and bless us please
till death do us part
And all the other men
can go to Hell!