I LIVE ALONE

I was lost
Then you called my name
Of all
Yours rang the loudest
And I was saved

But you linger only awhile
And left me alone
The glow was plain
And my eyes were blurred
I could not see the way
Where you were not
This new place is Hell to me

So we must meet apart
You there
And I here
With a road that divide us
And a door that will not close
These oceans will separate us
But in my prayers
You will not leave me in despair
Though I live alone
And have no more eyes
To live in this paradise

I KEEP THIS SCAR FOR HIM

I'll keep this scar for him
And stash it far away
Until it bleeds again
I'll tell him
Nor, Im not hurt
It was just a few tears
All the cuts made by his gems

If I tell him these scars
Were there long before his absence
It would mean
Not him but them
Nonetheless

One day
I'll tear all these scars
And show him the wound
Maybe then he will understand
For he could not afford
To count each scar
and every tear that I bore

If he were to count them
One by one
The cut, the bruise and the wound
It will sink deeper
And he'll miss
Counting them

AND TO PART AGAIN

As my fever glazed my eyes
Alas I reached you
Within the miles
That separated us
You swayed and murmured
Only a word "Wait For Me"
What is it that I do not see?
Is there a light that gleams?
Could it be I've lost my life
In this land of dreams
How sad it seems
That there is nothing more to say
There is nothing more to do
But to kiss and part, again

No, do not start
My world was not enough for you
And just like yesterday
When night slowly creeps in
You were gone again

When thunder came
And rocked the quivering wall
The storm tried to reel in
But amidst all these deafening sounds
All I heard was your voice
"I will come home"
And so I waited and waited....

Stretched to the couch
I tried to cling to every memory
Count all the prayers I kept for you
Wiping a tear left, right and everywhere
Even the faintest utterance
Though slowly fading
Was like music to me
But to you, My Lord, all this grasp of reality
Is often forgotten
And you made my spirit turned
Harder than I thought

Today
As I flicked your name
There is nothing more to rue
We are so close
Yet so far
You love me not
But this heart never wilt
For love dwells not in our will

Nor can I blame you
It takes a lot
To strongly and vainly
Love you still